NoMiracleInLife vs LifesAMiracle

Bismillah arRahman arRaheem

Allahumma solli 'ala Muhammad wa'ala aali Muhammad, kama sollayta 'ala Ibrahim wa'ala aali Ibrahim..

wa bareek aala Muhammad wa'ala aali Muhammad, kama barakta 'ala Ibrahim wa'ala aali Ibrahim..

1. there is no miracle in life.

2. all things happened in life are miracles.

these two statements simply show us that this life, we may view it (i.e. life) from much (uncountable) ways/perspectives. its merely our choice.

which statement do you believe?

i choose the latter. simple reason: it is much more fun to think that way. besides, we can also add some relevant words as we are muslims, "all things happened in life are miracles planned by our Beloved, The One God". doesn't that soothes our heart when our soft, brittle, not so metallic hearts being hurt, or things just wont go as planned?

Allah is The Great Planner, The Knows-All.

but then, the hardest part is to apply a knowledge after learn it. takes quite some time for rusty heart like mine. need to do frequent clean-up.

credits to jdrama Kiina to make me realise these facts. benefit watching jdrama: at least a moral of story in every episode (if you mind to do a little thinking session).

WaAllahu a'lam.

can i cry?

Assalamualaikum warahmarullah..

Allahumma solli 'ala Muhammad wa'ala aali Muhammad, kama sollayta 'ala Ibrahim wa'ala aali Ibrahim..

wa bareek aala Muhammad wa'ala aali Muhammad, kama barakta 'ala Ibrahim wa'ala aali Ibrahim..

kita disuruh kawal emosi. jangan buat keputusan ikut emosi. jangan emosi lebih2. biar rasional, jangan emosional. kalo gitu, apa gunenye ada emosi?

fitrah setiap manusia (dan makhluk2 len gak) untuk mempunyai emosi. emosi itu sifatnya rapuh. "brittle", ikut bahasa tok nenek korg. rapuhnya emosi tu, menyebabkan kalo kita emosi berlebih2an, senang utk entiti/makhluk len (aka musuh nyata kita sumer) menguasai diri. menguasai fikiran. tanpa fikiran, maka kita dah xda kawalan terhadap diri. bak kata tok nenek lagi, losing self-control. dat wat makes you not a normal human anymore.

then, nape Allah ciptakan emosi ni ntuk kita? nape Allah bolehkan kita ketawa? nape Allah jadikan air mata? kalo xleh kawal emosi, dah jadi manusia abnormal lak..

cuz without it, ur not a normal human too. with emotion, u create a new friendship. with emotion, u understand others. with emotion, u feel one of the greatest gift from Allah to the world, to you, the LOVE.

so, when the right time comes, just feel free to express urself. smile most of the time. cry sometimes. be happy always. but dont feel sad forever (humans optimum growing/working environment is when he/she feel relaxed, happy, satisfied). angry when u should be. love someone u think he/she deserves it.

but then remember, the most important point. Allah created us these wonderful feelings, so that we will always think of Him, who allows us to feel the emotion, whenever we feel happy, enjoy, sad, frustrated, pissed off, angry, confused, down.. He always with us all the time, no matter who you are!

p/s: post serabut. xde kronologi, xde cohesion+adhesion. sorry for any grammatical error. juz take the main point, ok? hee.

Tawakkal

assalamualaikum warahmatullah...

kyaha, bersawwang dh blog ni. siyes xde mood nk update.

tp ngenangkn nk didik diri jadi istiqamah, ak balunlah.

kelmarin exam BioChemistry n programming language (aka Visual Basic). honestly, ak rasa usaha ak ntuk 2 kertas tu bernilai 2 hari je. sehari (oh x, 1malam kot. hee) ntuk VB, sehari ntuk BC (xaci ah VB je de kependekan nama).

tp rasa puas hati sgt. rase aku dah usaha sehabis baik. ak dh pecah rekod, korbankan satu malam ntuk study. selama zaman SPM dulu, ak xnah stay up ntuk study. not even once. kat sini ah pertama kali ak merasa pengalaman gini. menarik. tapi xnk wat lagi (kalo dpt..). xbaik ntuk tumbesaran otak. malam Allah cipta ntuk berehat (bagi manusia normallah~)..

then gi exam.. 1st kul 11.15am, subjek VB. jawab dlm masa stgh jam. rase cam sumer soklan ak leh jwb. insyaAllah ok markah ak ni, bisik hati.

tekan je butang Proceed, ak tersentak. aih, ni je?

nape td rase cam leh je jwb sumer?

rase cam xde banyak pun soklan keliru?

xde pun rase, hee, berserah jela.. dpt ats gini2 pun jadilah..

XDE PUN?

ak pun kuar dari Lab10H2 dgn kekonfiusan.. mane salah ak? soklan mane ak salah? dlm keadaan terkesima, aku gi masjid.. otw, ak sedar. ak tertinggal elemen paling penting dlm mnjwb pekse.

TAWAKKAL.

lupa ntuk rase berserah dgn ape yg dh ditentukanNya. lupe nk rasa kebergantungan pada kudratNya. lupe aku ni hambaNya yg xde pape upaya pun ntuk wat satu ape pun dlm dunia ni. Dia yg tentukan semuanya.

bila dh tiba ke masjid, rasa menyesal meluap2. mengenang balik pesan ibu, "papepun, biar kita sentiasa ada hubungan hati dgn Allah. Dialah yg paling senang ntuk kita berhubung. dgn bisik hati pun leh.."

ok. ive learned my mistake. next paper, i dun wan to do da same.

next BC paper, 2.00pm. 40minutes, 37 questions. if im not mistaken. finished in 37 minutes, i think. dah cube tawakkal sehabis mungkin. finally, click da somewhat-horrifying-unpredictable PROCEED button. with bismillah..

yg terpapar di skrin: Exam completed. You got -tuuuuuuuuuuuuuutttt- (this part has been skipped due to violation terms). Thank you for taking the exam.

tatap lame skrin tu. hum, not bad. ALHAMDULILLAH. this is wat da bez for me. though its not very much expected. im expecting higher marks, to be honest.

balik umah, cermin diri. actually, xrasa sedih sebab markah xcapai target. happy je, sbb berasa diri ni dah usaha terbaik, dan dh jawab exam ngan terbaik. dengan izin Allah, itulah markah terbaik.

tapi, terkilan ngan diri sendiri. tawakkal ialah salah satu elemen terpenting ntuk manusia meneruskan hidup. am desperately hoping dat my heart still alive, so that i can still modify it..